JenLin Photography

Some sentences just suddenly came out from my mind...
"Sometimes we can't change our life, but we DO can change the way we live;Sometimes we can't make people love us, but we DO can love ourselves just as what we are."

Guess I still wanna be "free".

Usually when I heard some songs that I really into it, I just listen it over again and again till I dun feel like to hear it anymore. And I will take a break from that, find some other good songs to listen. Like Mariah Carey, Craig David, Coldplay and blah blah blah... ..Usually after 20 times, I just kinda feel sick of it.
I've been listening Jack Johnsons'  for a long time, but these days I just realized that I never feel tired to listen Jack Johnson's songs. His songs are "just perfect" for me. It always bring me a good mood and even while I have to work 24/7 almost recently, it just brings a lot of energy and  happiness. Very Creepy.

Its been over 10days since the first day I stepped here in the gallery. The life in Beijing started with a very busy but bored feeling. Beijing now is entering the winter. Winter in Beijing means "Truly Freeeeezing", everything is DEAD! And my body too. I am been surrounding in this silent but awkward atmosphere and been having a headache for over a week. Besides, the gallery is even "peaceful". I was upset about that till I talked with my boss Robert this morning. He was telling me its quiet like this during the winter time. "People prefer to stay at home, sleep in the bed. They don't feel like to shop something especially these ART STUFF, which you have to have the emotion to buy it." He said. True, true, very true. So I am sitting here checking emails and waiting my dear clients who have  this "eager " passion to buy some art pieces come to me. :) Sitting and Waiting...*o*

One of the print painting we sold on my birthday for a French couple. The girl's eyes are quiet amazing, it really catches me. I love it.

Today was kinda slow in the gallery again. My "special" boss (He emphasized that he is special.) came to company me for the whole afternoon. We talked about everything and about relationship too. I was saying about some person that I'd never gonna understand why he had to done those things to me. My boss was intelligence pointed out that sometimes people just can't let themselves being attracted by someone totally, cuz there afraid to being controlled. "Because I love you, I have to leave you." He mentioned one of his stories about what a girl was saying to him.  Well....the explanation isn't quiet acceptable for me, but I guess some people truly felt that way. People are just complex and all different, and sometimes the only thing we can do is be aware of some random people accidentally hurt ourselves. Sadness!
Btw, I will be going to have a break on Sunday, oh yeah! I could went out on Sat night. :D

每次都在猶豫到底應該寫中文還是英文....如果兩個都寫又太佔空間了...hmm...所以我現在就看心情，這應該是最好的方法。
今天又是漫長的一天。十點照常到六星級凱賓斯基飯店的畫廊上班，人潮不太洶湧，原本期待會有如昨天一樣的好運結果當然不可能每天都這麼好囉。畫廊本來就小小的，加上又只有我一個人；冷清的時候真的挺想睡覺的。就是這麼想睡覺的同時就會有一些奇怪的人走進來。這是個活生生的“藝術家“；他穿著一件酒紅色的唐裝和條牛仔褲。 “我來看看你們的畫....你是哪裡人啊？“這個藝術家問道。 這種情況遇到很多次了....好像我的“台式口音“特別與“眾“不同。“呵...台灣人。“我說。“喔∼你們台灣人啊....女生講話特別溫柔，就是很有氣質....“他又說。 我哪裡有氣質...氣質從來沒跟我扯上邊。不過操著一口濃厚京片子口音...跟台式的平順果然是有顯著的差別。

來中國最好玩的其實就是不同中國人看到台灣人的想法。那種歷史的...現代的....羨慕的....複雜的....情緒、情感。但絕不像那種台商說得來這裡多危險。“我想是因為他們都太有錢了“才覺得會被綁架：也應該說那些台商來這裡都有一種莫名其妙的“優越感“。好像一付台灣人就很跩...包N奶，使喚大陸籍員工等等。這些我在上海可是有些經歷到。不過對我可是一點也沒影響。反而很多人看到我一個人還會很好心來幫我提東西....也不會因為我是哪裡人就仇視我哈哈。坦白說更多的是好奇和羨慕。

Today was suppose to be a nice day. And its a nice day in the end but comes with some weird things. I was happy about moving to the new single room, but when I was waiting for the girl take me to the room, my boss Robert rang me. He told me I suppose to work today. "What?? I thought I will have a day off today and officially start working on Thursday?!" "Katurah put you on the schedule tho..." Robert said. "But I am moving today, its impossible to be there Right Now...I AM SORRY!" I was thinking about pls give me one day break for me to clean the room and settle things down. But Robert didn't get my mind..."Then once you done, pls go to the gallery." "Okay, I will try my best to be hurry...." with the upset voice, I hang off. "Shit! why he ruined my lovely Wednesday??? I need to do a lot of things today.=(" Okay, so after I been lazy and try to be in the gallery as late as I can, and I arrived around 5pm. I was feeling bad with the disgusting gray sky and cold to death weather and the crowd as hell bus...Just right after I opened the gallery for 30 mins, this guy came in. He is about 180cm tall and with an huge black coat. He looks about 55yrs old and seems pretty nice. He was discussing with the painting with me and suddenly he saw a print painting on the corner. Which is 5 crying boy who wear the old China military uniform. " How much is this?" He asked. "Well its 7200RMB." I checked on the list. "Well....thats not bad, I dun have boy and you know...." Blah blahblah...he is murmuring. Then, he asked how much discount that I can get, Robert said it will be 7000RMB.  "7000RMB...its not even the discount.." He tried to bargain. "I am sorry, I really can't...=(" And he just got it!! I can't even believe my eyes. He just said okay!! And he got it. So cool~This is the first print painting I ever sold. Before he left, he shacked my hand and said " Have a good life!" Fantastic!!  I feel very happy Right Now. =)

Today is my first day working in the Beijing Central Art Gallery....maybe its nothing really exciting but I really looking forward to be stay in Beijing. I starting making friends with ppl came from different "world". I just got my single room in Wanjing area for around 150USD per month. Also making my connection with ART. My boss Robert, an UKer, who is such a mysterious guy seems to have lots of energy on talking and sharing his idea. I mean, which is great to talk to him, and heard about his  Today we start talking nonstop for over 3 hrs which is absolutely cool.
If you ask me about how have I been in Beijing these days? I think I would like to say I really enjoy a lot. My friends treat me really nice and I alway feel exciting to settle down in a completely new place.Besides, my BD was awesome with people and we went out to a Salsa Dancing Bar which is amazing. I enjoy the beginning of Beijing staying. Hope I can keep working hard and making more friend here.=)

While waiting for the response from the job, I am actually doing nothing in Beijing. My friend has to work all day, and I am just being lazy to do anything by myself. So I Start a New Blog again. (Every time when I start a new one its just not gonna lest longer..)
 I am really  a homeless right now, without family and close friends, but inside my heart there is a little voice is telling me; 'So what??? Life is an endless adventure. You just brave then others thats it."  Guess thats totally true for me. I choose it, I deserved it.
Hopefully I can start my new life ASAP.
PEACE! =)